F: my town, chi-town

i just got this sudden desire to be in chicago, just walking around, enjoying the city. and it's weird. i've never really thought of it as home before now. granted, i live a ways out from chicago itself, but i've just never wanted to be there instead of here. i've for sure wanted to be with people from northern illinois, but not to just BE THERE.

i guess it's 'cause i was telling a friend about ed debevics and then just started thinking about all my trips into the city and how next to none of my friends here have any idea what i'm talking about. and no one here or in rockford have much of a clue about my life in the southern sickness (aka so ill). they don't really understand where i'm coming from.

i love union. i feel at home here. and i really feel like i fit. yet, i still feel detached sometimes. i suppose i subconsciously assumed once i found a fit, i'd be "complete" or at peace. it's just another reminder that our completeness won't be achieved in a place, in another person, in a job, in success. true completeness, true peace doesn't come from who we are but rather who God is. i am at peace knowing that Christ took my burden and gave me hope, knowing that He is in control of my circumstances, and knowing that my completeness isn't dependent on my fitting in or being understood by my peers. my true fit is in the arms of my Savior, walking in His righteousness and claiming His truth.

find rest, o my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, i will not be shaken. my salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. - psalm 62
this is home to me.

-freckles