these past few weeks have been... a lot. maybe it's because i cannot remember having a chance to just rest since that one day at the beginning of june - and who knows when before that. or maybe it's because i've been so stressed recently. whatever the case, i am having trouble getting over being bummed out. i've missed so many special days (especially bummed about rob's 30th birthday, my parents' 30th wedding anniversary, and SMOOFS BEING BORN.) and there were quite a few people i didn't really get to say goodbye to. i guess i'm starting to realize that i don't really know how many chances i have left to be with my rockford family. the kids are growing up so fast. everyone has so much going on. and when i'm here at school, i can't really be a part of it. it's hard, because i wouldn't want to be anywhere but here, and when i'm away from school, i miss my union family like crazy...
i just miss my best friend. i wish i could go sit on her couch and tell her everything that's going on in my head and hear about her life and laugh with her. and it honestly breaks my heart to not be able to see little adalynne. the richmonds, cartys, and kolanowskis are family. i hate that i can't celebrate with them and be near them.
i guess it's just that my heart is pulled in so many directions right now and i'm hurting because of it... 44 days since i left. roughly 75 til i'll be able to visit. wish my two worlds were closer. and really dreading the day when those two worlds will be split even more.
-freckles
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